painful as hell.
if you read beed's earlier post you would know that he had to attend a funeral today of a 16 year old kid that took his own life at the end of a rifle.
you also know that beed knows this family. we arrived at the church a little before 12 but they were already letting people in. we got in the line to talk to the family. what in the hell do you say to someone that just lost their son, brother at his own hands?
you just hug them and say "i'm sorry, i can't imagine" and you choke back the sobs so you won't add to their pain.
since we got there so early we had a two hour wait before the funeral started. beed is a people watcher if anything and saw so many things play out that he wouldn't dream of sharing on something like this.
the non stop line of other kids, high school kids who were his classmates and a bunch of kids that were his brother's friends just made beed's heart break.
for many of these kids, this is the first person that they have lost. beed was blessed when he was young as he didn't lose any family members until his great grandfather passed when beed was 15. but that wasn't like one of my friends taking his own life. he was 92.
the two pastors that did the funeral said that the boy, his brother and their father were all baptized on Christmas day 2005. what a treat that was. they showed video of it.
there was much crying and weeping today but what do you expect when we lose one this young? it's been a long day....beed has been up since 2:30 and it is now 8:38. very tired and hoping his eyes won't zombie on him at 2:30 tomorrow.
beed has spoke to dahbicito several times today and noticed that at the end of every call he said "i love you". he usually never adds that to a phone call in front of his friends even though papi always closes a phone call with "i love you". this really affected dahbicito. that poor little fella has lost more than one mentor and friend in his short 19 years.
it felt good to hug the family members today and hope that the healing touch of human interaction would work it's magic. as human beings we crave human touch. it reassures us so.
i promise i am not trying to be morbid. i am sharing an experience that made me feel as raw as an open cut. again, if you pray......say one for this family for if there is a family in bowling green tonight that needs it, it is them.
your friend,
david.
you also know that beed knows this family. we arrived at the church a little before 12 but they were already letting people in. we got in the line to talk to the family. what in the hell do you say to someone that just lost their son, brother at his own hands?
you just hug them and say "i'm sorry, i can't imagine" and you choke back the sobs so you won't add to their pain.
since we got there so early we had a two hour wait before the funeral started. beed is a people watcher if anything and saw so many things play out that he wouldn't dream of sharing on something like this.
the non stop line of other kids, high school kids who were his classmates and a bunch of kids that were his brother's friends just made beed's heart break.
for many of these kids, this is the first person that they have lost. beed was blessed when he was young as he didn't lose any family members until his great grandfather passed when beed was 15. but that wasn't like one of my friends taking his own life. he was 92.
the two pastors that did the funeral said that the boy, his brother and their father were all baptized on Christmas day 2005. what a treat that was. they showed video of it.
there was much crying and weeping today but what do you expect when we lose one this young? it's been a long day....beed has been up since 2:30 and it is now 8:38. very tired and hoping his eyes won't zombie on him at 2:30 tomorrow.
beed has spoke to dahbicito several times today and noticed that at the end of every call he said "i love you". he usually never adds that to a phone call in front of his friends even though papi always closes a phone call with "i love you". this really affected dahbicito. that poor little fella has lost more than one mentor and friend in his short 19 years.
it felt good to hug the family members today and hope that the healing touch of human interaction would work it's magic. as human beings we crave human touch. it reassures us so.
i promise i am not trying to be morbid. i am sharing an experience that made me feel as raw as an open cut. again, if you pray......say one for this family for if there is a family in bowling green tonight that needs it, it is them.
your friend,
david.
posted by dahbeed at 7:29 PM
2 Comments:
Thanks for sharing this. I am so sorry for you and your family as well as the family of the young man. I just can't imagine. I lost a cousin in the Gulf War and another cousin at the hands of a car accident. That was very difficult on me. Just hug those 'babies' of your tight and give them those hugs and kisses. Like you say -- they are never too old. Hugs honey.....
It's tough beed but you just hope their faith is strong and they let God have it.
I recently took family pictures of siblings and two days after they ordered the pictures the youngest one hung himself. I get connect in that way with families I photograph and it hurts to see others hurt. Then you end up thinking, what if it was me or my family.
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